Dear Ones,
Hi conjurers of futures! Peacewarriors. What heartsick times. Thin red lines. Chaotic transformations. Life is suffering. There is tragedy and there is triumph.
The world is a petri dish. Literally. The politics of microbes are so intriguing. Microbes and governments go way back. Pandemics shaped dynasties in centuries past.
I also sense creation energy, don’t you? Rapid mutations of humanity. Upgrade progress potential.
What we attune to will determine our fate. How cool is that balming truth?
May we be living examples. Elder Stephen Jenkinson poignantly asks: What might an elder do at a time such as this?
Can we transmute the energy of anxiety into the energy of peace, non-fear, collaboration, kindness, and harmony? Maybe. Maybe not.
ASYNCHRONY
The ecosystem has a thready pulse. Out of synchronization. Is it atrial fibrillation? Defibrillating. Unstable Vtach. Flatline. Will there be ROSC or Return of Spontaneous Circulation? What will it take for rhythms to synchronize in our lifetime?



ART SHAPES LIFE
I am generation X-ile. Xenniel. Born in the East. Catapulted to the West as a young and confused child. I am socially and politically unhoused. Undomesticated. A misfit raised with no handheld dopamine. I am from a DIY culture. Low definition, grainy, 8mm times. Kurt Cobain sculpted me. I don’t like to be confined or defined.
I believe in imagination. This is not woo woo. I believe in the science of imagination to restore our decayed brains. To teach the art of growth, resilience, and adaptability. Not the forced optimism of modern-day failed patriarchy. Not the servitude of “liberation.”
QUIET REVOLT
We all have “ADD” by now. Not all of us are on stimulants. “Attention Deficit Disorder.” Maybe it is a nomenclature issue. A wording thing. Our attention has been hijacked, Sapiens. Attention thievery. No one has immunity.
What a biopsychosocial pickle. Some humans sink into the refuge of quiet revolt. Disengagement and passivity is resistance in another language.
Neurodegeneration has spread rabidly at this point. Accelerated rot across time and space. Is it the point of no return? Luckily no. Human brain neurons can grow new pathways. Thank goddess.
April 1, 2025 My Pelican Brief:
SYNCHRONIZATION
How do Brown Pelicans synchronize? It is a science and an art. There is aerodynamics and then a bunch of other mysterious things. They use environmental awareness, social cues, and intuition. These dinosaur birds adjust wingbeats in near-perfect unison.
What a display of silent collaboration. Present moment agility. Can we learn from this phenomenon?
The Blue Angels, the U.S. navy’s elite flight squadron, are the human version of synchrony mastery. Check out this great 2024 documentary on teamwork, skill, and dedication.
The provocative Rupert Sheldrake’s work on The Extended Mind and Morphic Resonance is worth mentioning here.

SANCTUARY OF AWARENESS
For free awareness practices and creative rituals, check out my labor of love Sanctuary of Awareness. I hope it inspires you to be creative and build your own apothecary.
Unit 1 Observation of Landscape available here.
Unit 2 will be live at the next substack post.
Share of Unit 1 observations:
Collective social intelligence is a great adaptation.
Humans have connectivity to wider metabolism issues.
Harmonious interplay of plants and microbes and humans.
I feel most comfortable with microscopic and unseeable things.
The wisest parts of me surface in silence.
Peace and health for me now is a creative flow state- an absence of resistance.
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May All Beings Find Peace.
Nessa (born at 333 ppm)
SCARS OF MY HAPPINESS




Thank you, this resonates with my heart🩵🩵🩵
Keep sharing. I love it.